"If it's really going to be us, then it will be us! Love will find its way."
It was about a year ago when I admired this certain guy. Let us call him "Tempered." He seemed to be the guy who has a hidden beauty. It was not until we became Sophomores when his beauty was noticed. For me, I did not admire him just for his physical appearance but also because I thought he was God-fearing, intelligent, nice and almost every trait that most guys in our batch did not seem to possess.
"Tempered' became somehow close to me. We talked about whatever things we can think of. He was fun to talk with. His eyes were simply expressive. Things between the two of us went on so smoothly.
One night of November, it was our Athletes' Night. I was so much busy preparing the food for the band members that were going to perform. I was already so much exhausted. When I checked my phone, there was a text message. As I opened it, it contained the lyrics of a song that "Tempered" sang during our Intramural Games. But when I asked who the owner of that number was, disappointedly, it wasn't the guy I thought. He introduced himself as a Nursing student of Cebu Doctors' University. I was quite doubtful of the identity he told me. Since my aunt works in that learning institution, I planned to let her verify it. Days passed by, I still continued exchanging text messages with that unknown person in order to know more things.
I was a Monday. Classes resumed. As I was talking about that unknown number, "Tempered' suddenly butted in. He told us that that certain number also sent him a message. My doubt seemed to grow that the owner of that number is just someone around who knows us.
One day, the owner of that unknown number was finally identified with a friend's help. And yes, he was no other than "Tempered." Even if I knew the owner, I did not stop to exchange messages with him. In our exchange of text messages, my admiration towards him grew. My hidden admiration was starting to get into people's knowledge.
Christmas party came. At this point, a lot knew about my admiration for "Tempered," It was somehow humiliating. Several people were discreetly teasing us. It was on the eighth day of December when he admitted that he admired me. I didn't take it too seriously as I know the situation. He has a girl. I found it impossible or weird as I know where I stand in the society. A lot of people around are way way prettier than I am. On the ninth day of December, I finally told him about my admiration for him. I felt really stupid for telling him but I just took the risk of saying it. I think it was also during this day that he 'courted' me. I felt guilty as I know that they are still on. I don't want to ruin a relationship. My conscience wouldn't be able to take it. With this, I felt bad towards hi because if he was really serious of what he said, he would not think of entering another relationship without ending the other as this would hurt a lot f people. After such, I started to become rude towards him.
Christmas vacation was over. Back to school again! At this point, I knew that he had a relationship with another girl even before ending his past relationship. I really felt disappointed. I should have not admired him. Things went on differently. I barely talked to him and oftentimes, I would avoid him. These things are better than the days that followed. I did not talk to him, not even a single word came out of my mouth. This went on for three weeks.
I can't take it an longer. I can't suppress things. With that, I talked to him. I frankly talked to him. I gathered all my guts just to clear things up.
When I thought things were clear, I talked to my friends about what took place. They told me that they are confused of what the truth really is. The told me that he was making contradicting statements. Yes, I admit. I myself noticed that. Again, I tried to talk to him. This time, he told me that things are over.
There's no problem with me if it's over. Now, I have realized that he's not the person I expect and thought him to be. I was WRONG! He's not worth it! Game over!
Sorry may be a meaningful word. It's easy to say sorry and it's easy to say that it's all right. But you can never take away the pain you have caused. It will always be a part of a person's memories.
P.S. To that certain person, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for the time we have spent together. I know that you are still somehow immature. I hope you know that I have tried my very best to fix things and that to let our friendship remain but I also hope you know that I have my limitations as I am just a human. I grew tired of the situation. I hope you'd learn to decide on your own and that you'd learn to take a stand.
It was about a year ago when I admired this certain guy. Let us call him "Tempered." He seemed to be the guy who has a hidden beauty. It was not until we became Sophomores when his beauty was noticed. For me, I did not admire him just for his physical appearance but also because I thought he was God-fearing, intelligent, nice and almost every trait that most guys in our batch did not seem to possess.
"Tempered' became somehow close to me. We talked about whatever things we can think of. He was fun to talk with. His eyes were simply expressive. Things between the two of us went on so smoothly.
One night of November, it was our Athletes' Night. I was so much busy preparing the food for the band members that were going to perform. I was already so much exhausted. When I checked my phone, there was a text message. As I opened it, it contained the lyrics of a song that "Tempered" sang during our Intramural Games. But when I asked who the owner of that number was, disappointedly, it wasn't the guy I thought. He introduced himself as a Nursing student of Cebu Doctors' University. I was quite doubtful of the identity he told me. Since my aunt works in that learning institution, I planned to let her verify it. Days passed by, I still continued exchanging text messages with that unknown person in order to know more things.
I was a Monday. Classes resumed. As I was talking about that unknown number, "Tempered' suddenly butted in. He told us that that certain number also sent him a message. My doubt seemed to grow that the owner of that number is just someone around who knows us.
One day, the owner of that unknown number was finally identified with a friend's help. And yes, he was no other than "Tempered." Even if I knew the owner, I did not stop to exchange messages with him. In our exchange of text messages, my admiration towards him grew. My hidden admiration was starting to get into people's knowledge.
Christmas party came. At this point, a lot knew about my admiration for "Tempered," It was somehow humiliating. Several people were discreetly teasing us. It was on the eighth day of December when he admitted that he admired me. I didn't take it too seriously as I know the situation. He has a girl. I found it impossible or weird as I know where I stand in the society. A lot of people around are way way prettier than I am. On the ninth day of December, I finally told him about my admiration for him. I felt really stupid for telling him but I just took the risk of saying it. I think it was also during this day that he 'courted' me. I felt guilty as I know that they are still on. I don't want to ruin a relationship. My conscience wouldn't be able to take it. With this, I felt bad towards hi because if he was really serious of what he said, he would not think of entering another relationship without ending the other as this would hurt a lot f people. After such, I started to become rude towards him.
Christmas vacation was over. Back to school again! At this point, I knew that he had a relationship with another girl even before ending his past relationship. I really felt disappointed. I should have not admired him. Things went on differently. I barely talked to him and oftentimes, I would avoid him. These things are better than the days that followed. I did not talk to him, not even a single word came out of my mouth. This went on for three weeks.
I can't take it an longer. I can't suppress things. With that, I talked to him. I frankly talked to him. I gathered all my guts just to clear things up.
When I thought things were clear, I talked to my friends about what took place. They told me that they are confused of what the truth really is. The told me that he was making contradicting statements. Yes, I admit. I myself noticed that. Again, I tried to talk to him. This time, he told me that things are over.
There's no problem with me if it's over. Now, I have realized that he's not the person I expect and thought him to be. I was WRONG! He's not worth it! Game over!
Sorry may be a meaningful word. It's easy to say sorry and it's easy to say that it's all right. But you can never take away the pain you have caused. It will always be a part of a person's memories.
P.S. To that certain person, thank you for being my friend. Thank you for the time we have spent together. I know that you are still somehow immature. I hope you know that I have tried my very best to fix things and that to let our friendship remain but I also hope you know that I have my limitations as I am just a human. I grew tired of the situation. I hope you'd learn to decide on your own and that you'd learn to take a stand.
2 comments:
helow there thei! i think i know this story.. yeah... anyways a very nice post topic! I love reading the story over and over again.. Char!
-prelygirl-
yah! it's really a game over....
he is really the wrong person...
Good luck sa imu love life!
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